At a year out from having graduated, one of the most arresting realizations that I've come to is that there is a vast difference between having direction and having a job. It is entirely as feasible to have a job but have no direction, as it is to have direction but no job. I believe that over the last year, I have entered into the latter category. It is a difficult position to find yourself it, but I would rather be here than the former. This is not to say that any spot is better than another--they are both lacking. However, for my specific person, I think it is more conducive for eventual success. It is entirely possible for someone to remain in a job with no direction for their entire live and end up completely unfulfilled when they come to the end of their time, whereas I feel like it is a little less likely that one would have direction and remain completely unmotivated to do something about it for their entirety. I think the anxious feeling that would create would be unbearable for so long a period of time.
But what is success? Certainly, there is an element of worldly success that all people seem to desire. But what's more is the certainty of having come to the end of my time here on Earth with the knowledge that I affected change. And even more, change within people for the sake of Something Greater.
Sartre first coined the phrase "By any means necessary" when he was discussing how to eradicate the lies of society, not by eliminating lies, but rather by eliminating class. Malcom X made the phrase a common turn of speech when he was working for the equality of all humans. It leaves open all available tactics to reach a desired end. The desired end I wish to seek is not to spread Christianity by any means necessary. This is where I think so many people, throughout history, have gotten confused. Rather, my desired end is to know that by any means necessary, I died to myself to truly follow Christ.
