Thursday, September 4, 2008

oh cripes

Wow.  I am incredibly emotional and incredibly angry right now.  I know that I am being completely irrational and a total "girl" but for real.  I might be having a panic attack.   

I don't understand people.  I hate being an extrovert.  I hate that people don't understand for a while until they get to know me that I simply like to be around people.  And I'm really sick of having to deal with them being overwhelmed and me feeling like there is something wrong with me because of it.  

Seriously.  What the crap is indeed wrong with me?  I'm to the point where I don't even want to have close friends.  Keeping people at a distance would be much easier for someone like me.  I can feel myself shutting down again.  

This might be incredibly selfish.  This might be incredibly foolish.  

But either way, I'm pissed off about it right now.

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