bah bah

i haven't updated this in a while but it's been busy and my head has been hurting. This usually means 1 of several things:
-i'm getting sick
-i'm thinking too much
-i'm wrong about something
-i'm listening to the jazz that makes you head want to explode

i'm pretty sure that all 4 are happening, so that's definitely cause to make my head hurt.


i'm currently in the midst of a pity party, but there's not much to do about it besides yank myself out of it and tell myself to move on. i don't think i'll really delve deeper into it on here simply because then the 3 people who read this would know without a shadow of a doubt that i am, in fact, insane. :P we'll just save the ranting involved with this one for my actual journal that is almost done. i need to start searching for a new one.

for as much as i think, you'd believe that i'd be able to control my mind with stuff like this, but it's not possible.

(don't worry, i'm not in any real danger here.) i am however concerned a little for the sake of some things, but it's nothing that i haven't been through, pulled myself out of and moved on from before.

i'm not even sure why i'm still typing about this. probably because i don't actually feel like writing about it yet, so i'll just beat around the bush until i decide that i need to pick this apart in my head.

silly rae.

on another note, it's almost november.


...and that's why they call me "rae-dhd"