Plant Me A Magnolia Tree

Everytime I think that I have it figured out, I get completely thrown off my path.  Right now, life is an array of experiences and moments that give me a glimpse of their endings and then flip a switch at the last minute.  

I thought I had healed on an issue.  I thought I had grown past it.  With all of the growing I have done in the last year, I was sure that was an area that I was beyond.  It turns out that, while I have indeed grown a ridiculous amount, there was a bitterness and a hurt that was starting to bubble up out of me.  I'm not sure I'll say more on that other than a talk was had.  A little bit more of a resolution has come to pass.  

There's also the issue that I while I was previously so sure that PA school was the route I was going to be on now.  But it turns out that the artistic nature in me will not be quelled.  I want to write.  There's no reason why I can't do it all right?  Minus the fact that I think I already am shortening my life by years due to the amount I am involved in so far.  

(I'm not actually concentrating on writing this right now, so maybe I should just stop before I butcher good ideas...)

Study Day is tomorrow...I'll catch up in here and start processing some thoughts.